WEST COLUMBIA, S.C. (AP) — For years, Jill Biden couldn't bring herself to pray, her faith shattered by the 2015 death of her son Beau from brain cancer at age 46. She felt "betrayed, broken."
Then a face in the crowd at one of her husband's stops in 2019 as he campaigned for the Democratic presidential nomination would, in her words, change her life.
Robin Jackson, wife of the pastor at Brookland Baptist Church in South Carolina, offered to be Jill Biden's "prayer partner" when the Bidens worshipped at the church.
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Thus began a relationship that the first lady said had helped "shape my life."
Jill Biden talked about her South Carolina friend as recently as February of this year, but always without naming her. On Sunday, she returned to Brookland Baptist to help celebrate Pastor Charles B. Jackson Sr.'s 50th year of service and laid out in emotional detail how his wife had helped her reclaim her faith.
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"I'm sorry if you've heard it before but I'd like to share it again," she said before retelling the story.
U.S. first lady Jill Biden showed up to meet British Prime Minister Boris Johnson and his wife wearing a dark jacket with "LOVE" embroidered on her upper back.
The first lady doesn't usually speak publicly about her faith but said Sunday that "it's always been an important part of who I am." She recalled being a teenager who "fell in love with the peace of the quiet wooden pew," the "joy of the choir" and the "deep wisdom of the Gospels."
She said prayer helps her "connect to the people that I love and to the world around me."
"But in 2015, my faith was shaken," the first lady said, her voice breaking as she described watching "my brave, strong, funny, bright young son fight brain cancer."
"Still, I never gave up hope," she said. "Despite what the doctor said, I believed that my son would make it. In the final days, I made one last, desperate prayer and it went unanswered."
She didn't understand how Beau could die. She grew angry, then distant from God.
"I felt betrayed by my faith, broken," the first lady said, her voice quivering. Her own pastor emailed occasionally to check in and invite her back to service "but I just couldn't go. I couldn't even pray. I wondered if I would ever feel joy again."
Then she accompanied her husband, Joe, to Brookland Baptist on May 5, 2019.
"Something felt different that morning," the first lady said. She described how Robin Jackson came to sit beside her and ask to be her "prayer partner."
"And I don't know if she sensed how moved I had been by the service," Jill Biden said. "I don't know if she could still see the grief that I feel still hides behind my smile."
"But I do know that when she spoke it was as if God was saying to me, 'OK, Jill. You had enough time. It's time to come home,'" she said. "And in that moment, I felt for the first time that there was a path for my recovering my faith."
The first lady said Robin Jackson's "kindness, mercy and grace pushed past the callouses on my heart and, like the mustard seed, my faith was able to grow again." She said it reminded her that what was at stake was not an election or a partisan battle, but a country in need of healing.
"This church changed my life," she said to applause.
The pastor's son, the Rev. Charles B. Jackson Jr., said that his mother began texting prayerful reminders to Jill Biden a few days after they met. The first lady returned the texts.
"This would continue on all the way till today," Jackson Jr. said.
Jill Biden said earlier this year the relationship with Robin Jackson had made a difference in her life.
"It really helped me find my faith again," she said on Kelly Clarkson's daytime talk show.
She occasionally accompanies the president, a devout Catholic, to Mass and was with him Saturday when he worshipped at Holy Trinity Catholic Church in Washington.
Her role in celebrating the pastor's 50th anniversary was a surprise for Robin Jackson in keeping with the first lady's reputation for doing thoughtful things for people she cares about. Jackson Jr. said his mother did not know the first lady would participate in the celebration.
"It took everything in us to keep it from her," Jackson Jr. said.
The White House did not publicly announce Sunday's trip and the first lady flew, apparently by coincidence, on an unmarked D.C. Air National Guard airplane.
Photos: Jill Biden as first lady
Joe Biden is sworn in as the 46th president of the United States by Chief Justice John Roberts as Jill Biden holds the Bible during the 59th Presidential Inauguration at the U.S. Capitol in Washington, Wednesday, Jan. 20, 2021. (AP Photo/Andrew Harnik)
President Joe Biden and first lady Jill Biden wave as they arrive at the North Portico of the White House, Wednesday, Jan. 20, 2021, in Washington. (AP Photo/Alex Brandon, Pool)
President Joe Biden and first lady Jill Biden pay their respects to the late U.S. Capitol Police officer Brian Sicknick as an urn with his cremated remains lies in honor on a black-draped table at center of Capitol Rotunda, Tuesday, Feb. 2, 2021, in Washington. (Erin Schaff/The New York Times via AP, Pool)
President Joe Biden and first lady Jill Biden board Air Force One at Andrews Air Force Base, Md., Friday, Feb. 26, 2021. They are en route to Houston to survey damage caused by severe winter weather and encourage people to get their coronavirus shots. (AP Photo/Patrick Semansky)
President Joe Biden appears with first lady Jill Biden and the Easter Bunny on the Blue Room balcony at the White House, Monday, April 5, 2021, in Washington. The annual Easter egg Roll at the White House was canceled due to the ongoing pandemic. (AP Photo/Evan Vucci)
First lady Jill Biden turns around to show the word "love" on the back of her jacket as she speaks with reporters after visiting with Carrie Johnson, wife of British Prime Minister Boris Johnson, ahead of the G-7 summit, Thursday, June 10, 2021, in Carbis Bay, England. (AP Photo/Patrick Semansky)
Britain's Kate, Duchess of Cambridge, center right, and US First Lady Jill Biden during a visit to Connor Downs Academy in Hayle, West Cornwall, during the G7 summit in England, Friday, June 11, 2021. (Aaron Chown/Pool photo via AP)
Britain's Queen Elizabeth II stands with US President Joe Biden and First Lady Jill Biden as they listen to the US national anthem at Windsor Castle near London, Sunday, June 13, 2021. (AP Photo/Alberto Pezzali)
First lady Jill Biden reacts as she and President Joe Biden meet veterans of the British Armed Forces before boarding Air Force One at Heathrow Airport in London, Sunday, June 13, 2021. (AP Photo/Patrick Semansky)
President Joe Biden and first lady Jill Biden visit a memorial wall covered in flowers and photos of the missing Thursday, July 1, 2021, after a condo tower collapsed in Surfside, Fla. (AP Photo/Susan Walsh)
President Joe Biden, first lady Jill Biden, Vice President Kamala Harris and her husband Douglas Emhoff, participate in a wreath ceremony on the 20th anniversary of the terrorist attacks at the Pentagon in Washington, Saturday, Sept. 11, 2021, standing at the National 9/11 Pentagon Memorial site, which commemorates the lives lost at the Pentagon and onboard American Airlines Flight 77. With the President, not shown, are Secretary of Defense Lloyd Austin and Joint Chiefs Chairman Gen. Mark Milley and his wife Hollyanne Milley. (AP Photo/Alex Brandon)
First lady Jill Biden applauds children during her visit to The Learning Hub in Allentown, Pa., Wednesday, Oct. 13, 2021. (AP Photo/Matt Rourke)
First lady Jill Biden meets U.S. troops during a visit to the Mihail Kogalniceanu Air Base in Romania, Friday, May 6, 2022. (AP Photo/Susan Walsh, Pool)
First lady Jill Biden visits with Slovak and Ukrainian mothers and their children as the families participate in a Mother's Day activity in Kosice, Slovakia, Sunday, May 8, 2022. Biden will then travel to the Slovak border with Ukraine to meet with refugees. (AP Photo/Susan Walsh, Pool)
First lady Jill Biden stands with her grandson Beau Biden as she receives the 2022 White House Christmas Tree at the White House, Monday, Nov. 21, 2022, in Washington. The concolor fir tree for the Blue Room of the White House, is 18 and one half feet tall and presented by the Shealer Family of Evergreen Acres Christmas Tree Farm in Auburn, Pa. (AP Photo/Andrew Harnik)
President Joe Biden and first lady Jill Biden arrive to pose for a photo with French President Emmanuel Macron and his wife Brigitte Macron in Grand Foyer of the White House before a State Dinner in Washington, Thursday, Dec. 1, 2022. (AP Photo/Andrew Harnik)
First lady Jill Biden reads "The Snowy Day" by Ezra Jack Keats at Children's National Hospital in Washington, Friday, Dec. 23, 2022. (AP Photo/Andrew Harnik)
FILE - First lady Jill Biden gestures while meeting with medical professionals and students during a visit to the University of California San Francisco Helen Diller Family Comprehensive Cancer Center in San Francisco, Oct. 7, 2022. (AP Photo/Jeff Chiu, Pool, File)
FILE - President Joe Biden and first lady Jill Biden watch fireworks from the White House, Jan. 20, 2021, in Washington. The ocean blue tweed dress and matching coat that Jill Biden wore for Joe Biden's presidential inauguration is about to go on display at the Smithsonian's National Museum of American History. In a rare move, the museum will also display the ensemble she wore for evening inaugural events, an ivory silk wool dress and matching cashmere coat. (AP Photo/Evan Vucci, File)
President Joe Biden and first lady Jill Biden speak during a reception to celebrate the Lunar New Year in the East Room of the White House in Washington, Thursday, Jan. 26, 2023. (AP Photo/Susan Walsh)
First lady Jill Biden accepts "Hearts and Crafts," Valentine's Day cards from children at the South Riva Ridge Child Development Center in Fort Drum, N.Y., Monday, Jan. 30, 2023. The visit is part of her Joining Forces initiative to support military and veteran families, caregivers, and survivors and the "heart-work" will be featured at the White House for Valentine's Day. (AP Photo/Adrian Kraus)

